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  • Mood: Angsty
  • Listening to: Epiphany - Sweeney Todd the Demon Barber of Fleet
  • Reading: Sweeney Todd, and Vampire Kisses the beginning
  • Watching: Sweeney Todd the Demon Barber of Fleet Street.....
  • Playing: Hide and seek alone with the ghost of Sweeney Todd
  • Eating: His mouth.....
  • Drinking: His lips and tongue.....
That feeling I get when I see a word or a name. It's a sickening feeling like I'm gonna vomit. It's an angry feeling like I'm gonna scream, or worse kill. It's a depressing feeling like I'm gonna cry and never stop until I'm drowning, suffocating in my own tears and anguish. When I see a certain word or a certain name. Words, names that remind me of my adolescence, they give off an omnipresence that I'd wish to ignore. Ignore but can't. Why do they do this to me you ask? Because my apparent lack of empathy means I'm unfeeling. I have no feelings of my own. Why do I claim that I do have feelings then? Oh I don't know maybe because that's what my heart is for, that's what my soul is for! I have a heart, I have a soul! Yet these creatures who claim to have feelings too, they try to hate me, try to wreck me, try to bring me down. Down when I stuggle on my own to stay up, I don't need their help staying down. Yet they keep going, keep trying, keep shoving me aside, holding my head under water. They don't care, I'm just words on a computer screen! They don't see me, the person that they torment. They wonder why? Why, when I finally stick up for myself, do I get so angry? Because I'm sick of your bs! I'm sick of your "I'm the one whose a mess"! No one person's pain is more important. Everyone goes through shit! Yet you act like I'm the one with no heart! Yet you act like I'm the only one in the wrong! It takes two to tango, two to start a fight. It takes one to finish, one to quit the dance. Yet you're so insistent that I keep at it, how can I say no? You invigorate the hatred in me, I want hate! It's easier to keep away, away from more of the creatures that claim to care. Creatures that will ensnare and trap me never letting go until I suffocate, and burn from their betrayal. I know I'm a monster I admit it! I can be the worst of the worst. Yet all you creatures claim you've never done a bad thing in your life? How is that so? When you've hurt me, my family, my everything? How can you even have the guts, the balls, the vertebrae to say that? I don't get you? Now as I speak the words that for so long went unspoken. You've left a poison in my mind, in my gut, in my heart. Certain words, certain names will forever cause me grief, pain, hate. They cause me sickness, anger, sorrow. Because whatever tomorrow brings they make me think of you, all of you that have hurt me. Because I have no feelings, no heart, no soul. But you do.  

The above poem/journal entry/words on the/your screen are

(C)(TM)(R) me, myself and I, LiLithe Todd, SylverFire-LiLithe, SylverFire, L A Rainey, L A Rainey/Todd, L A Todd, etc names and aliases that are the woman you are speaking/typing/chatting to/with.

( woke up feeling shitty. Was going to write a journal. Ended up writing an angsty spoken word style poem about my feelings and thoughts instead.)


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Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
I'm goth deal with it!! I write angsty poetry.

Current Residence: hell
Favourite genre of music: metal, goth, rock, alot of stuff.....
Favourite style of art: horror
Operating System: blood!!
MP3 player of choice: iPod touch
Shell of choice: my fiance's warm hugs, the dark
Wallpaper of choice: bloody
Skin of choice: my fiance's...*evilgrin*
Favourite cartoon character: Raven, BeastBoy, Creepie, Skipper, Raven, Morpheus, Misery Whispers, Cassie, J, CC
Personal Quote: Imma spazz!!!

PS:: I do not support "Sweeney Todd X Mrs. Nellie Ann Margery Lovett" (though sometimes I do....)


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SiXProductions Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thanks so much for the watch, dear!! ♥
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lovelykotori Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for watching :-)
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Ruadh-Gra Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2015  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the watch!
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Freak-a-lot Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Student Filmographer
thanks for the fav! :)
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Chibii-chii Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
omg wat's the name of the cartoon you have as your icon XD??
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HollyBecker Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2015   General Artist
thanks for the watch ^^
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sexybackmerman Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Professional General Artist
Lorilei, no matter what you are important to me and everyone around you. Do not let what others have said past and present keep you from being you. You are beautiful and always will be. I am here and always will be. So will your husband, your father, your sisters, everyone whom you care for also cares deeply for you.

Congratulations on your twins, and may peace be with you my oldest friend. Everything will be ok in the end it always is. ;p
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MitchAfterMidnight Featured By Owner Edited Jul 9, 2015  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! I hope you enjoy :D
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Hearsesrock427 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015
So you say you like angsty poetry. Ever heard the song "Breaking Curfew" by Red Rider? It's not poetry, but it's definitely angsty. It's all about breaking the rules, doing what you want when you want to do it, etc. May not be the most intense song you've ever heard, but I still think it's powerful.
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MagicCrazyMagician Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: Llama Emoji-10 (Shy) [V1] ~!
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Eris-Koori-Yuki Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch <3
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MaryamDN Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015  Hobbyist
Hey! thanks for the watchSquish Hug 2 -  The Eye Poke 
as an really should just let loose and post the pictures of your dolls. there are worse things on DA than pictures of life-size dolls that are inspired by a character and artistically created.
worse case scenario, you'll get a troll or two tell you you're crazy but as far as trolls go, we've all had them and we're all still doing our thing. if they don't like it, they don't have to look.
what's the worst that can happen!
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DerpySuperHero Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the favorite!
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karutimburtonfan Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey, thanks for the faves and the watch! 
Means a lot!
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