I'm sorry. To ahoikitty and her brother falsereasoning I'm sorry. I honestly never meant for this misunderstanding to get this out of hand. I never intended to cause all of this drama. I get really super sensitive about certain subjects and I blow up easily. One of those subjects is my fiancé. If someone questions whether or not I'm "treating him right" or questions whether I really am devoted to him and vice versa, I get very defensive. He is all I have, he is the only person in the world that I trust more than anything, more than anyone. I would give my life for him, I would trust him with my life. He has been with me through thick and thin and never left. And sticks by me. I have done the same, we're so in sync we finish each other's sentences often.
I know what I am saying is no excuse. I'm not trying to make excuses either. I just really hate it when people get involved in my relationships...... When no one asked. Again I know it's no excuse, I'm just explaining my reasons.
I know what I said and did was cruel and unnecessary..... I am very sorry about that.
I'm not exactly a good person. I'm tainted, I have a lot of walls up. I have a lot of defense mechanisms.
Only my fiancé has ever been able to get through them. And now my oldest friend has managed to help me just like he used to.
Please accept my apologies, I never meant to hurt anyone. I just want everyone in the world to just let me live my life how I want and to stop judging me. That last statement was directed at people who did that mercilessly from when I was young (3 to 4 years old) until now.......